dieforthin

Alright... soooo...

My senior homecoming is september 16th, and I want MORE THAN ANYTHING to be 100 Ibs by then. I thought it would be easy but I guess its harder then it was in 8th grade to fast.

As bad as it sounds... I REALLY hope this hurricane (Ernesto) hits florida, right now it is headed right for us and that would be nice.... If we lose power than we cant cook.. and the things in the fridge go bad... so it would be easy not to eat for a few days... I dont want any damage or people to get hurt but... an easier way to fast would be GREAT!

school starts tomorrow- and so does school lunch :o( I hate watching people stuff their mouths

My weight is all over the place. Hopefully it is just my scale but I gained back 2 of the pounds I lost, probably because I had a Smart Start dinner thing last night.

I hate not having the control I used to. In 8th grade it was so easy to lose weight. I wouldn't eat anything for days and if I slipped up and ate something it was so easy to just throw it up. Now it is sooo hard to not eat and I cant start throwing up again because I am a singer and it really started to effect my voice after about a year. Hopefully it will be easier to control myself after a couple more weeks, im doing good... but I feel like I could do so much better

I HATE school lunch... seeing everyone eating that crap and asking why im not eating is so hard... so i had like half a piece of pizza... that was the only thing all day but it still made me feel gross

my boyfriend is amazing... he doesnt really know about all of this but im sure he will start to catch on eventually..

y parents are fucking ass holes and will probably never notice... (which is good)

Doing good...

All I had today was water and tums...

UNTIL... my boyfriend forced me to eat dinner...

but all in all, today was a good day

Alright... So I have another LJ but my friends started to notice that I was in alot of ED groups... so I made this...

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